Oh that demon inside of me. Will you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is perfect. You drive your aspirations deep within my soul. And there I lay, the monster within playing around within me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more I try and run from you.
But I'll fight no longer, only to eagerly embrace your presence. Does this bemuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my incapability to see that it was the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I'll see now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore regarding you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here within me. Not walled out from me any more. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I am completely conscious of what you now are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not making an attempt to fool anyone any longer by showing them a smile on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you say about all of the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your success? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. I am going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my life choices are primarily based on light. It is time to begin living my life and make the best calls I am able to. But I know that I must consult with you...oh devil inside. You can show me a path that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been frightened to go. But to ignore you further would be out of ignorance. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I would like to hear what you've got to say.
But I'll fight no longer, only to eagerly embrace your presence. Does this bemuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my incapability to see that it was the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I'll see now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore regarding you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here within me. Not walled out from me any more. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I am completely conscious of what you now are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not making an attempt to fool anyone any longer by showing them a smile on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you say about all of the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your success? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. I am going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my life choices are primarily based on light. It is time to begin living my life and make the best calls I am able to. But I know that I must consult with you...oh devil inside. You can show me a path that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been frightened to go. But to ignore you further would be out of ignorance. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I would like to hear what you've got to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
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